You're tired and have been working so hard. You are cosmically exhausted. You just want some rest.
It is natural to want the path of the heart to feel safe, to provide answers to your questions, and to establish a new reference point from which you can move forward. But the movement of love is one of holy reordering and is not organized around your hopes, fears, and preferences.
So much has fallen away over these last weeks and months – so much that you thought you needed, so many of the identities you thought you had to maintain, so many beliefs about the nature of love and why you have come here. But what will arise from the ashes of the known?
You are not yet being given any answers, but continue to be asked to sit in the fires of groundlessness, and to stay committed to complexity, confusion, and contradiction. For these are your most alive teachers now, aligned on the altar of your heart, and calling you deeper inside. They will only continue to ask you to let go of the ‘need’ to resolve something, to wrap it all up, and to spin back into the dense environment of the known.
The beloved is a shape-shifter and will use the entirety of the phenomenal world to reach you. He or she will never stop appearing as the inner and outer mandala that is taking form as your life… now.
She is preparing the ground for what is next. But what is next is always and forever made of the unknown. Stay there.